This one's not so much in response to a prompt, although I thought of Hope's "storm" theme for today.
Looking back on the past year, not only did I not write much, I forgot my own advice in this blog's title.
I depend on an uncountable number of people each day, particularly in my job. Plans that I made and expected colleagues to help with did not come about, for reasons that became clear to me later on, but at the time paranoia and resentment clouded my thinking. I was unwilling to give others the benefit of the doubt and not "take it personally." Furniture and appliances were not delivered, no one would explain, and I became hostile and non-communicative.
The ice may have melted when I was in the process of writing an accusatory email and then I realized that it said more about it me than its intended recipient. Where were my priorities that I would take the time to send a "nastygram" instead of focusing on what needed to be done?
So as the moments arise, each out of each, I want to take things more lightly, that maybe what I think must be said in the moment doesn't need to be. It can wait. Or it won't matter.
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